Friday, May 25, 2007
A LITTLE BITCH, A LITTLE HAPPINESS
I move one week from tomorrow...and I CANNOT WAIT. I keep thinking how ridiculous it is that I'M being forced to move, and that I'm moving into a HOUSE...all the while my next door neighbors have their entire family cramped into a loft the same size as mine. And I SWEAR it feels like they're making more noise than ever as my parting gift.You know how sometimes you meet someone and just know instantly that you are NOT ever going to like each other? That's how it was with my neighbors. I just knew. And believe me, I tried. And I made TONS of concessions for them: I never played my music, ran my dishwasher, etc. after 7:00 because they have a young girl there. I never had friends over at night and/or entertained in my apartment because I knew they'd be able to hear it. I moved all of my Monday and Tuesday lessons to Mondays every other week to cause the least amount of noise possible to them. I was constantly aware of the noise level and really worked hard to be a good neighbor.
Meanwhile, their kids have constantly banged things against the wall and floors. They did a month long of construction against MY wall - all during the day while I was working. Their daughter is prone to regular temper tantrums where she stomps her feet and screaches loud enough to wake the dead. And this happens at all hours -morning, noon, and as late as midnight. I cannot even count how many times I've been woken up out of a dead sleep. All day today there's been some banging going on over there - sounds like more construction on a smaller level. It's always CONSTANT NOISE next door and it's driving me insane. Seems to me that if you're going to have an entire family living in a small space like that, the courteous thing to do would be to invest in some soundproofing.
But, I leave in a little over a week and it won't be soon enough. And I'm EXCITED about moving! This house makes me SO HAPPY. Every time I go over there to work on it, it just feels like home. Comfortable, private, quiet, and in a beautiful area. I think living there is going to have a huge impact on me personally, because I'm just going to be so much more relaxed and happy. And this is my goal: to keep negative energy out, and continue to move forward and be positive.
You know for a while I felt like maybe I was selling out since I wasn't going to actively pursue music as a full-time career any more. But I swear, I tried. I was broke and poor and unhappy for a long, long time. While I never expected to be a tech support person, this job has brought me more happiness and success than I've ever had before. AND, I'm now remembering how much I LOVE music - and working on it because I love it, rather than trying to scratch out a dollar. I've got VFP, doing more solo stuff, and I'm even writing a one-woman show with all original music. That will be a challenge, but I have the luxury of taking my time and enjoying it and enjoying the process. I don't have to stress about music anymore, and I've got a nice roof over my head and the bills are paid. And all of this is on my terms: I work for myself at home, set my own hours, make my own music, and I'm HAPPY.
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